5 days to go

5 days until my EDD. Scary! Not sure if I'm ready yet...

OMG yesterday was the scariest day of my life! We had a HUGE hailstorm, hail the size of tennis balls! I was so petrified I had jesse underneath the kitchen table in the middle of our house. We have smashed windows and broken stuff on our car (poor car!), all the kids toys that were outside are smashed. The hail was about a foot deep at the front door, it was incredibly scary. It was soooooo loud I thought the hail was going to just smash thru our roof. Reiley and Ruby were at daycare and the roof came off! My parents car was smashed to smithereens, lucky brother only got his skylight smashed in on his house, DH's parents live with his grandpa and all the windows on the south side of his house were smashed and grandpa had a little turn because of the fright. I was still shaking for about an hour after it happened! They're predicting more storms for this afternoon and I'm so scared, I wish there was somewhere else i could go :( After it stopped you couldnt see the grass for ice, and it was eerie because there was steam rising off everything, looked like the world was covered in smoke and ice. Ergh

To top that off the landlord rang and from what he said i think he's selling the house soon :( I dont want to move! I dont want to move with a newborn! I HATE finding a house to live in, applying, waiting and packing, and if you're me you spend the whole process sobbing histerically that you're trash and you'll never find anywhere for your poor family to live! Why is life so cruel?